Hamara Bajaj : Emotions of an era or logics of big dreams, big money ?

Bajaj is a household name in India and with few such names and brands Indian emotions identify themselves very closely. Editorial in hindustan about rift between the son and the father and my curiosity was already there about this whole issue since bajaj announced closure of scooter business.

Rahul bajaj's statements on TV " I am deeply hurt by my sons decision to close bajaj scooter and I am not happy" has made me sad too and his son's statement that my fathers emotions don't make much sense because businesses run on logics and not emotions angered me bit because it portrays the reality's of modern businesses instant decisions and their so insensitive ways of working where on the face they may be loud with ads and lines of emotions asking people to buy their product, ironical!

I went through Rahul bajajs tenure with bajaj Auto and how he took the company to new heights from the period of 1965 till now. It was a company of approx Rs 72 million and Mr bajaj made it a company worth Rs 46.16 billion and that too during so called "license raj" period in India. Honda entered India and stock exchange fell in 2001, everyone said bajaj is a closed chapter but again it rose to heights with his business tactics and intelligence that he acquired with his experiences through years. He restructured the company with world class factory and brought pulsar to Indian consumers. I feel today Rajiv bajaj is riding on the same pulsar because he wants to make bajaj world's biggest bike brand at the cost of his father's emotions and family values. To make true ones high end dreams why not start from scratch and prove that if one can really make a world class company and get the experience as what it takes to reach such heights. It's always odd when I see people behaving emotionally but inside they are already dead. We all talk businesses and practicality but nothing in absolute forms work and it's more on emotions that we survive. How long one can survive in the harsh world of businesses and its ugly games? At the end in the evening we all return to our loved ones and it's our people's love that energises us to rise again next morning and do better constructive businesses which have hearts in them.

Understanding all this made me sad for the person because it was he who made bajaj what bajaj is today, it was this man's vision which today has been blurred by his own son. I say blurred because his vision [may be today its narrow for his son ] and hard work of years is more important than being a world leader in bike segment. Even honda said that bajaj's decision to close scooter was wrong. He could have reduced volumes or thought of other alternatives for his father's emotions with scooters of bajaj and such small gesture wouldn't have harmed Bajaj from being a world leader in Bikes. It would have been an excellent example of greater values and prestige not only for bajaj but for indian society too and may be a tribute to his father's hard work. Life is not just about sky-high dreams and billions of dollars, it's more about how you lived your life as human and even for the richest, too much of money and fame ends up with charity to find peace and solace to feel that they are still human.
Volumes fall and rise and scooters still sell and Honda knows that. If Rajiv bajaj cannot understand his father and his hard work of years then how will he understand consumers mindset. HE could have taken this as a challenge and continued with scooters too even as a small chunk of Bajaj auto.

In my house people felt bad on closure news of scooter , my dad has one since I was a kid of 7 years and we are common people of India and its same with middle class everywhere because we people thrive more on emotions as that's what we all need at the end of the day. Absolute emotions or harsh logics of business degrades everything around. Best is fusion and examples we have seen for ages with Bajaj, Tata or Birla. We Indians love them, talk about them, trust them not because they are rich but they connected well with Indian masses using path of emotions for their businesses and won trust by their so long associations with Indian consumer. Fiat, a brand so much into Indian hearts like bajaj but it couldn't use logics of business with modern times and tested Indian emotions for long which almost wiped its brand existence in India and till today I see this brand so nervous into the sleeves of Tata. Here its very clear that change with changing times but its emotional connections too with a brand that sells product and spreads awareness about a brand and its quality by word of mouth of millions.

I read few comments of few people in reply to bajaj closure on scooter news on rediff that bajaj scooter was a scrap and such negative remarks. I thought best people understand and read in detail about things before commenting. Answer a question that which big company of world class is absolutely clean and honest. In US or Japan even car companies take their cars back from consumers because of flaws and manufacturing defects but then we don't say that they are selling scraps.

GOOD TIMES, bad times

Good times and bad times is something that we all face and even the most powerful and richest cannot escape this. I have also seen most horrifying and death like bad times in my life and this whole idea of sufferings and happiness in life has left me thinking as how to go on in life without caring much about bad times.

ITS unfortunate that in our good times we invite completely wrong people for celebrations, we want them to be with us and smile with us.we forget or its coded in human nature that makes us feel that may be we cannot survive or be part of the society if we dont entertain that very crowd which never recognised even our existence in bad times. Its extremely tragic when in our most tragic moments we are forgotten and left all alone to an extent of our clans extiction. Its a personal experience too.
I never understood why our everyday living and good times so incomplete without those people who were never around in our bad times and what more shocking if they actually initiated the chain reaction of our tragedies.

FOR me, I would rather share my happy times with orphans in an orphanage or with hungry & bare skins of poverty on a road side. That will make sense when money and emotions wasted in a big fake celebrations of good times may bring smile on faces that rarely smile.

What celebration would be greater than feeding hungry stomachs and covering bare skins where skin itself seems to have forgotten if clothes also exist.
BUT have caution that don't make celebration with poverty and hunger a fashionable and style act that many stylish people do. DO this with your heart and you will feel your good times increase manifold. Best use your times with animal care who are most ignored and get cruel treatment in Asia and butchered across globe.

MY last 30 days visit to places with 30 days of smile on my face has made me more confident about achieving happiness if one really wants to. Its more about being your own self and do whatever heart desires but without hurting someones sentiments because its this goodness that makes anyone more happy. Its about internal satisfaction where our heart and mind feels great and that in turn makes us feel complete and purposeful. Good times don't stay longer, this we all know yet we all want it to stay for ever. Bad times always feels like it will never end because it's heavier, tiresome and frustrating and our continuous cribbing about problems makes it more longer.

One thing I always know that life is a big river flowing where bad times has larger share from which we all have to steal moments of happiness. I have seen situations where peoples silly mistakes destroys good times. Identifying good times and understanding this whole concept of being happy is only way of holding back GOOD TIMES for long time. live every moment, enjoy every part of life and smile with every individual you find on your journey. Our straight faces, locked lips, small heart and bad attitude gets us a slot of bad times which we all are in.

Remeber life looks short when we are too happy because we fear of losing our happy times and want it more longer, longer than average human life.
Life feels more longer when we are tired and unhappy because the overload of problems and unhappiness makes life miserable and living with all this makes us feel as if we are pushing our life ahead to somehow reach somewhere.
We all have share of good time and bad time, its for us to choose what we want to stay with.

26/11 Mumbai "Un Hazaaron Ke Naam"

26/11 is something that must be deeply embedded in every Indian's consciousness. I wrote my blog about this extremely unfortunate tragedy when it happened but today I am again writing. Its still in my memories and touches me though I was not there and how much I try I cannot feel what people felt who suddenly found themselves in those terror zones.

Yesterday night I watched a movie called "un hazaaron ke naam" on television and I tried in my imagination if I was there at CST, Trident, Taj or Nariman house then how I would have felt. I couldn't hold my emotions for long when a mother lost her only son or when a wife lost her husband and her new born shot in head. I know sitting so far from such tragedies cannot make me understand every emotion out there but certainly watching them visually makes impact on every human heart because we too have families, we too fear losing life and our loved ones.

Few days back I came to know that a police officer Hemant Karkare died only because his bullet proof jacket was fake and later that jacket went missing from his dead body and even the files related to sale of bullet proof jackets went missing. I saw how Maharashtra CM couldn't answer that question during a talk show hosted by Barkha dutt. That time I felt when people in top positions so openly give careless & heartless statements then how much worth is a common man's effort who can just go on with may be endless debates or processions or never ending frustrations on system that we have created.
I don't know, we all don't know how things will change and may be we have to live with fear of being shot or lose our loved ones suddenly someday, somewhere. Perfect security we all know cannot be achieved but we know if political system finds human heart in them then highest level of security can be achieved.

Indo-China conflict: Crouching tiger-Fire dragon

I didn't know much about 1962 Indo-China war but for last many months China has been in my thoughts because of all the news it had been making globally and largely in India. Today I made effort to get some knowledge about 1962 war as I heard on a news channels about an Indian diplomat in USA making statement that India is no longer India of 1962 and today we are as strong as China. The statement itself clears my doubt that china was heavy on India in 1962 war.

Last time in Delhi,I read in Times of India about China's objection to Indian PMs Arunachal visit during elections there. Even sometimes back too, I saw a news about China's objection to Dalai lama and PMs visit to the area. Upcoming visit of Dalai lama has again been objected and after so many of these incidents of statements by Beijing I have been thinking if China is really getting too difficult for India.

India I have always been proud of because I have seen my country taking tough stand with United states on many issues and one was signing nuclear deal "mostly" on its own terms. Last month after China's display of its huge defence power that made world look at it in awe and same happened during Beijing Olympic. It was on a scale that never happened before and that time too whole world was in astonishment with its amazingly successful, grand Olympic show.

I was discussing with my cousin about China's growth as a world power and its strength in Asia and as threat to USA in terms of power. Its not about war of India & China, its more about being efficient and strong so that our quietness, humbleness or non violence route doesn't look weakness to our neighbors. I think it was NDTV where someone rightly said that India has been in state of denial for long as if nothing has happened and its reactions to China's objections had always been too soft as if we are too afraid.

Diplomats and politicians slept for ages and never solved real problems of border issues in Aksai Chin in Kashmir and Arunachal border. We never cared to make country's defence stronger and efficient. Defence analysts do believe that war like things won't happen in today's world where each country prospers only because of economic growth based on maximum available markets. India is a major market for Chinese goods and today more economic growth means more close to becoming a world power. Anyhow if war ever happens then India will lose so its best we wake up and work on our security and military power too. China owns military which is very large & modern and India stands nowhere on that front. Experts also came up with China's history of engulfing countries like Mongolia and others with almost wiping the entire population. left overs were forcefully converted to accept China's rule & Chinese transferred their own kind to those countries to make the acquired lands look like China. All this fact is very interesting. and also depressing.

its not about war, its more about being efficient and strong so that our quietness, humbleness or non violence route doesn't look our weakness to our neighbors. i think it was ndtv where someone rightly said that India has been in state of denial for long, as if nothing has happened and its reactions to China's objections had always been too soft as if we are too week and afraid. diplomats and politicians slept for ages and never solved real problems of border issues and never cared to make country's defence stronger. defence analyst do believe that war like things wont happen in today's world where each country prospers only because of economic growth based on maximum available markets. India is a major market for Chinese goods and today more economic growth means more close to becoming a world power. Any how if ever war happens then also India will lose so its best we wake up and work on our security and military power because China owns military which is very large and India stands nowhere on that front. Experts also came up with China's history of engulfing countries like Mongolia and others with almost wiping the entire population and left overs were forcefully converted to accept the china rule. chines es transferred their own to those countries to make the acquired lands look like china. what i read or heard showed china only as a heartless civilization hungry for power. its here where maximum number off human rights violations takes place. I remember i saw and whole world saw on news channels about violence on Tibetans by Chinese police.

We have border issues to be solved in Kashmir and Arunachal Pradesh but it doesn't look is things are going to improve so its best India improves upon its shortcomings so that its not looked upon as a week country where any one can come and threaten us. I love my country for its commitment to world peace and non violence approach but we citizens feel that we should be also in a position where no one takes us for granted. This only can be achieved by working on every aspect related to social, economic and defence structures.
India doesn't need to crouch, it has all the strength & roar of a Tiger to stun fire dragon.

Abs: a VISUAL TREAT or RETREAT

I heard lot about six pack and eight pack abs since our so called celebs got themselves so much busy into Abs building tiff. They brought awareness about Abs on larger level with their ego & stature related complexes & clashes which is unavoidable in the show & glamour business. I understand that its very justified when people have to sell their looks and silver screen glamour because thats the ultimate product "themselves". Every business and product keeps improving their quality in their own arena so abs building and beauty enhancements are certainly justified here.

This thing has done good to young people too by at least making them understand that He is sure gonna look dashing like a rock star and impress girls and may be even land a chance on ramp or movies. Its always true that everything has both the elements of good and bad and best part is that people in doing all this have unknowingly become health conscious and feeling of looking good adds to the mental well being which in turn adds to ones health. I wrote "unknowingly" because most of the gym going guys and girls mostly do it without understanding health, its more like a trend and style for them where one is following the other and gym owners in turn rush to banks. I have seen people taking body building pills and trying Zero size without understanding the health risks but this is one ugly part of good looking business like other businesses have theirs.

Its too disturbing when I see obese people on tv, in trains, inside airports and any other public place. Stomach bulge in the front and hip bulge at back makes a complete S.
Recently too, during my one month trip I mostly tried finding people with flat stomach and I found very few in numbers who looked like having flat stomach. I saw men, women, children and even these days dogs getting lot of fat under their skin. More interesting aspect is that people carry it like some prized possession, showing it so proudly as if competing for the largest bulge. Imagine people wearing skin tight clothing without realising their haywired figure . Best go online and read something about this bulge, its dangerous too.

At an age of 24 and 27 people are looking like uncles and bear dads and imagine they use anti-aging cosmetics. First they could have worked on their "S" which would eliminate their need of anti-aging cosmetics. When we have terms like 6 pack and 8 pack then why not 1 pack ab. I know and everyone knows that most of the physical aspects are natural like height,color of the skin or genetic complications(sometimes obesity too) but not the fat under skin. Most of the population carries this because of their lifestyle and food habit. Its truly disturbing when one makes a serious effort of looking at people around with research like thinking.

I myself found more than 80% of people on my trip in obese conditions. I saw few friends removing their clothes with their belly almost falling down & instant reaction on this was "shall I catch it before it falls". Trust me that most of the time such people are so handsome and beautiful but that whole "S" factor with nothing good in it just comes up. SURELY most of the time visual treats can happen unless we make it retreat...

Mumbai 2 nights 3 days [ 4 th oct - 6 oct 2009]

Three hours of sleep and finally an alarm "trin trin". I woke up and its 3 a.m., darkness every where and for me its as challenging to catch my Mumbai flight at 6 am from Delhi. I swear, next time not at all going to board any flight in the early hours of morning. After more than a year I was at Delhi airport and its completely transformed with a new departure terminal and very modern infrastructure. After getting my boarding pass I walked around to have a look at the interiors and went into each shop almost and even bought a Ganesha. There was also a very large screen television which i liked a lot. Flight was on time and on the flight my main worry was finding a decent hotel. jUHU ISKCON I always stay at but I was more worried if i will get a room . Its a place in Mumbai which has everything in terms of decent pricing, great food, great interiors, helpful staff and peaceful, spiritual environment.

Flight landed and I made a call to ISKCON and I got a room for 2 days but I could check-in only after 12 pm or I had to pay for one more extra day for only 3 hours occupancy so had to change my clothes in a bathroom and in the corridor of first floor of the ISKCON. I told myself " its a gods place and so no inhibitions because he knows me best. I didn't feel bad about it because I have seen many tough days when I was young and in last many years I have developed my thinking for being a perfectionist in every possible way. Egos and attitudes are something that every person needs to win over or they win over you. Its more satisfying when I can afford 5 star but still can manage with a corridor & toilet without any tantrum. When people don't understand money, status, and themselves then their wealth always goes down the drain with short lived show-off lifestyle..
I kept my luggage at the reception counter and carried only my laptop for my meeting for which I was in Mumbai but I stopped at the gate because it was raining . Hotel staff helped me with a plastic bag to cover my laptop and finally in rain I went on the road for a taxi. It was quite a surprise and I was happy that meeting venue was just 5 minutes aways from ISKCON.

Meeting I won't write much about but it was a good communication with good people. After meeting they got me dropped to Iskcon. I was too tired so after lunch I went to sleep and later in the night after sumptuous, delicious buffet dinner, I watched Rab ne bana di jodi on my laptop.

Next day again I had my meeting but this time at Lokhandwala and today it was raining heavily and I felt it was impossible going out. For a moment I thought of calling those people and say my real excuse but suddenly something hit my thought. I always told people never give excuses in life and today it was for me to prove that. I decided I am going and anyhow. Next 15 minutes I waited for taxi on the road under a torn umbrella through which rain kept pouring on me. I got 20 minutes late due to traffic jams in the rain but I was happy I made it. I had my meeting with 3 people but each at a time and I know it was a truly a learning experience and I made every effort to gain from each meeting session. I tried to be my real self and not any professional robot.

Later at 7 pm Sri dropped me to Infinity mall in Versova where I walked in and around the mall and even watched a movie called "wanted". I even saw two TV stars in the mall and felt thrilled and one I saw at Iskcon's restaurant though I am not a person who rushes to see celebs. Next day Sri's driver delivered my laptop that I left in the car last night. Sri I liked quite a lot for warmth. I payed the bills and was almost on the verge of checking out that I bumped into a guy called Bhisma, he was truly a gentleman, he cared for me within that short span like someone my own with water, chocolates and cashew nuts. I would say truly like his name BHISHMA because even in Mahabharta it was mostly Bhishma Pitaamah who influenced me with his extraordinary forte of sacrifices and loving nature. We chatted almost for 1 hour and his parents were also there who told me that its great that at such young age I am chairman of a firm. He was from Washington USA and it was more satisfying to see that he cared for his parents too much even after being in United states. Here I would say " Please so many of seriously confused Indians who disown their parents , learn something from such people and go and say "I love you maa, I love you paa".

Before leaving Iskcon I went to temple and saw god, smiled and talked to him inside my heart. Asked him always help people who are innocent and true because that will keep the faith alive else faith of humanity in the god will fall and gods existence will fall because its true humanity and true spirituality that holds back even god's heaven and his existence on earth in different forms. Finally walked out and get into a taxi for 35 bucks to Mumbai airport and there I flew back to New Delhi...........During this 1 month vacation of delhi-shimla-mumbai ,I spent more than a Lakh but earned happiness worth more than a crore...definitely not because of money but because of experiences on the way.........

A short trip, I would say truly "एक लम्हे में सिमट आया था सदियों का सफ़र, ज़िन्दगी तेज़ बहुत तेज़ चली हो जैसे" (english translation : Life was so beautiful that moments looked short and life seemed to ran so fast as if hundreds of years passed by in just few seconds..)

AFTER more than one and a half year I am away from my home, my people and truly wanted to be myself, that very fanatic, very childish who wanted to fly away to some far and quite land of eternal solitude, where life just becomes a celebration of joyful living with my own soul.
After my stay in Delhi's sophisticated ultramodern setup for last 20 days finally I decided to travel to serene Shimla hills and beyond that to fagu and kufri in search of my dream house and did managed to see some good properties and hopes of my future enchanting, peaceful life seems feasible now.

I booked ticket in Delhi-kalka- shatabdi and very early morning at 5am I left Delhi. On the road to railway station people were sleeping on streets and road dividers. I went into deeper thinking about life and its problems that so many people suffer and its painful at least for me watching all the misery around. Waiting for the train I noticed that my e -ticket didn't had my seat and coach number printed so got worried as how to search my seat and suddenly realised that I had screen captured images of ticket in my netbook, I hurriedly pulled out the netbook and got back my seat and coach number. I felt relaxed and at ease.

Boarded the train and and next to my seat was a guy seating who looked friendly and even he
smiled to me. I too smiled and said hello and we felt too comfortable talking as if we had known each for quite long time. He (Hitesh) told me he works in Microsoft in United States .. We guys kept discussing things and talking till he reached Chandigarh. We exchanged numbers and email ids . He left and from platform he looked back to say bye . What more one wants in this big bad world where people are so bad and artificial and practicality kills every soft emotion in every human being. I felt happy and saw my hope resurrected.

Train left Chandigarh, chair car cabin looked empty and I felt nice because I don't like lot of crowd but during this time I noticed a person sad and tired who served tea and food to everyone in the train. he came to me and asked me if I need anything and he was extra polite and sweet with continuous smile amalgamated with sadness. He took a seat behind me and I asked him to come and seat besides me. He hurriedly came smiling and I asked him why he is so sad looking as if frustrated with the whole world. He smiled and said " I made every effort to serve people what they wanted, from newspapers to food but few people behave so badly that I feel very low and tired of all this." I told him that didn't I noticed his hard work and his smile too. Serious and genuine efforts never go unnoticed and someday it certainly gets appreciation. I asked him (Krishna raane)not to feel sad because of few insensitive people. I felt I gave him hope and his happiness made me happy that at least I made some one happy. I called him a "Dost". I always knew that its not status of people that makes me talk to them but its their hearts, simplicity and emotions that attracts me.

Train stopped at Kalka station and I walked giving a deeper look to toy train as if wanting to ride the train till Shimla. There outside I got a van for rs 1200 and finally me and the driver drove up hill roads to Shimla. Music from the car stereo and add to that beautiful surroundings of Himachal made me sing few lines of song " waadiyan mera daaman ,raaste meri baahein , jao mere siva tum kahan jaaoge". In the car it was me and driver only and it was truly worth paying 1200 rs. I almost felt being transferred to era of 70s and 80s movies of Rajesh khanna. I felt very filmy and romantic with my own self.

I paid for drivers lunch though he kept insisting that I don't pay but I told him that I am happy doing it because he again resurrected my hopes that better people still exist. We guys discussed many things and till shimla I felt I was with my friend, its vibrations that I feel from people and act on that and also its about finding right people which mostly happens to me. I thank god for always being so sweet to me.
In shimla I walked till lower areas of Mall road and felt really tired because it was after so many months that finally I am walking so much. It was Gulmarg hotel where I changed almost 3 rooms until I liked one and even warned reception guy that he provide me with a room with window facing valley.

I took bath and changed my clothes and left the hotel in the evening to Mall road in search of ATM to withdraw money. MALL road was full of people from offices, tourists , local girls and boys and bazaar was as usual happening. I found the ATM and there my money went back inside the machine and felt so confused as what to do. Bank was open and I found asst. managers(Nikhil, Pawan) from my place who made me very comfortable and even wrote an application for me and assured me that my money will be transferred back to my account by next day. He was thrilled to see a guy from his place in Shimla all alone. He even asked me why I am here and he didn't liked mountains and so even suggested me not to find a house here.
I was equally happy finding right people on my trip. First day on mall road I was walking alone not knowing that suddenly for next few days I will have company of some friends. He asked me to come to bank in the evening the other day. I went to the bank the next evening and later had dinner together and we did it until I left Shimla. I am an emotional person and so it was obvious I get attached to sweet people and I almost tried to give him hope in true sense when he shared some of his very private disasters with me. I asked him to be very strong and never lose hope. We discussed things as if we were old buddies and days spent with them made me feel as if for long time I have been in Shimla.
I took a taxi next day for Fagu to look for the property and on road to Fagu, views were just magical, it was clean and quite and cold. Shimla I never liked too much because its badly polluted and huge crowd suffocates me. Faagu provided much of a relief . Here, I did what I came for and again later next day I visited Fagu with another group of real estate guys. Two guys were young and we got together very well more as friends. We almost had lot of "masti" and blast on the way and I told him to drop me to Kalka station. I said what I pay to taxi ,I will pay to him too. I knew people work hard and friendship doesnt mean I use someone in the garb of relationships. Shimla to Kalka was very amazing journey. Not for once I felt I am with wrong people. I took them to Coffee Cafe day on the way and had Cappuchinos. We all made it clear to each other that we are friends even if the property deal doesn't happen and on Kalka station they wanted to come to platform to say good bye but I said , "its fine, you guys leave " and it was really a moment that makes me think that really we all have love and feelings for even strangers but either we don't realise it or kill this whole emotional aspect.

In train again I found myself in the same coach where Krishna rane served, he came to me smiling as usual and he looked almost attached to me. He gave me the food tray and I ate, he sat beside me, I told him I don't eat sandwiches and really didn't eat much since morning. He left without saying anything and brought me extra "samosa" and tried to give me one more food tray but I was almost full so I didn't eat more. he cared for me on the whole journey till Delhi, even people around looked at me that I was being taken care of so much. I asked him not to show extra attention to me like I am privileged.

Train arrived Delhi and before leaving I gave him 100 rs thinking that its not a tip because "tip" will ruin this whole feeling of emotions that I have for him. In real I don't give tip in hotels or anywhere. I considered him as a friend and someone my own and gave him my card and told him you will always be a friend irrespective of what you do or what you are.

I walked out and took an auto rickshaw and again that auto driver resurrected my hope that people still think so much about others pain . After I commented on how people were being almost dragged to the dhabas as if they have to eat in those dhabas or they will be murdered. He told me he feels sad when he cannot help people from Bihar and UP who he sees everyday being tortured by goon like rough dhaba owners opposite Delhi railway station. I told him what more beautiful I need to end my this short trip than a sensitive young autowala with his so emotional observations about life. His life is an everyday struggle for survival and peoples abusive words are his everyday sweet songs and harshness of life kills such people every moment. My words made him feel good and I could see stars in his eyes that people have after some recognition.

I finally reached home and took a deep breath because I knew my magical, fantasy kind of journey has ended and I am back in the real world with real bad people around me. I would say "thanks god" for making my trip a trip that felt if I was in that short time zone for quite long time and met best of people, smiled throughout and got best of experiences to cherish for long and feel nostalgic when I look back. wows..but good things come to an end too.
While climbing the stairs I murmured lines from Jagjit singh's ghazal from a movie tum bin "एक लम्हे में सिमट आया था सदियों का सफ़र, ज़िन्दगी तेज़ बहुत तेज़ चली हो जैसे" Perfection in their happiness people rarely achieve ever. I did.

NAT GEO. JAILED ABROAD - a virtual experience that SHUDDERS

I have been a TV buff all these years because I almost had no friends and being a loner, it proved a great comrade. I watch so many things of different kind but it is this one program " jailed abroad" on Nat Geo that made me much more sensitive and gave me insight and understanding of people living in this dark lost world away from the bustling world of everyday.

It was here where I learned as how it feels when people really understand what it means to have even a single real support in bad times, what it feels when innocent people fall to traps of dark world where smuggle of gold in NEPAL, or drugs in PERU or BANGLADESH is a daily affair. How all this ruins so many lives and years of innocent people where they are trapped and find no helping hand in an alien country far far away from their home land and loved ones. How people endanger themselves for short lived thrill and excitement even after knowing the truth of the situation.

I would say its a program worth watching and its something which is better when its viewed. I will really not go to length on writing about it but even if i wrote than its more because its something that really moved me inside, whether its situations of people or situations of jails in the countries of this world. Few things that I wanted to write here about convicts life or walls or toilets or officers of jail but I can't write due to highly degradable and inhuman aspects. I remember when two foreigners were released after 2 years, think and imagine their happiness when they saw sun and busy road and city after years. I mean few things only they can feel who are in the situation because their situation is not like every ones and besides those people trapped are not real hardcore criminals.. as what rightly said one of the old lady who helped two girls to return back to their homes. She said " they are not criminals, they have been used by criminals"

ya seriously if many more people be like that old lady then many lost souls and forgotten loved ones can return to their homelands and loved ones. Such behaviour and humanity resurrects hope and cleans fallen dark hearts. I know punishment is must for wrong but law of countries world over has some very blurring lines which never understands what real criminals and fallen angels means.

RESURRECTION of LOST HOPE

I was on terrace and obviously that's the time when I am most with myself, analysing my days work, behaviour all and also what really affected me whole day in both positive and negative way. Its one and half year now that my so much real and courageous feelings of sacrifices related to everything around me really gave me deep insight into the working of these different aspects that we all come
across in our lives.

It affect each one of us in a different way bcas our situations, our outlook on issues, our ways of dealing with those issues varies and certainly each individual is not that competent and so fall is the major part of such situations where depressions, frustrations, hatred and self pity really becomes unavoidable.

I have been a person of extreme emotions on two ends and wanted long time before to see if these relationships will work or not if I deny all and just be a mere sacrificial statue though sacrificing is my forte when its about my loved ones and when I do it it gives a sense of fulfillment but I don't allow people for long to think that its my weakness. When I react I makes head turn I make everyone feel the heat.

Two days back I wanted to write blog when I read an article in Hindustan newspaper where it was a real good analysis of sibling rivalry since ages of Mahabharata to recent times bigwigs like Amabanis or Mafatlal brothers or late Maharani Gayatri Devi's clan who were and are at clashes like clash of titans and that too for mere material things and unseen power which even cannot be carried away to another world and sustaining them in real world becomes a challenge. I wonder why don't we use the same zest, energy and dedication for our relationships.

After so much of thinking and looking at real life, real people and real problems i feel its still a silly thing, an immature act of foolish and degraded mind where hearts get buried deep under that huge pile of wealth and power.

Even when I did so much all these last many months, it did feel heavy, a burden, a suffocation and u know why bcas it wasn't that I was missing wealth or fame, it was only that when I stayed with my loved one's for so long continuously without any ifs and buts then I was taken for granted and people almost forgot me and my whole existence seemed dead and neglected. I felt that frustration but it was never for wealth or fame ever.

IT does happen because people know that this person is not going anywhere and that feeling of losing him or her someday just vanishes and so the qualities or even identity of the person vanishes and goes unrealised. Recently when I heard people talking good about me as how I get worried for them and even they accepted themselves that they are actually wrong, imagine at last winning that lost battle, its no Battle, but I used this term because for me sacrifices always meant a bigger approach and way to hold relationships back with that godly charm. MY love and big thinking didn't go unnoticed.

Imagine if sacrifices really don't make sense then mothers would never have reached that height of god because her sacrifices too go beyond imaginations. I would conclude my whole of this analysis BELOW

"Sacrifices and extreme love for your own loved ones is as great as god himself, if you are that true then god is just walking with you, He never lets you fall, did I
fall?, no. Everyone is here to hold me back and then god also sends his angels in some form for such people because even god knows that its an age of distrust and lost hope where darkness will fall , where humanity will convert to Satan" so god has to walk the earth to save the innocent souls that show that sparkle, that enlightenment, that hope which can rekindle the essence of love and relationships.

Its a gradual process when people do ignore their loved ones if they don't see him her as someone who will get lost, so this aspect of relationship surely needs continuous caring. At this point of time I remember a film called "namesake" where one needs to say "i love u and I will always be there for you and we all need to feel that staying together till end needs that spark that magic.
Practicality at the end is the king laughing on failed and dead relationships of modern times where every life seems to be locked in a one or two bed room apartment of the congested streets where few stray dogs are barking as if saying... we will take over you humans because at least we are better trusted by you then you trust your own people. what an irony..

ISLAM at CROSSROADS OF TERRORISM

ITS a burning issue and a matter so much being discussed and talked about in last few years. I said "burning issue" because religion always meant forgiveness, love, pity, humanity and so many golden qualities of quality living. I myself got my education with so many Muslim friends for years and in my hostel life I never felt what I started feeling in last many years after 9/11 attack on America's World Trade Center.

I made effort on researching Islam and its deep impact on Muslims in Muslim world mainly about Pakistan and Afghanistan and analyzed as how 90% of Muslims actually don't follow Islam in its real glory and light. I remember when I had chats with few people in Pakistan's chat room then most of them started as friend but later started sending me site links of Islam and its teachings and almost tried to convert me. It was like every Muslim out there is on a mission of converting and inside their hearts other religions were just as evil as Satan. They presented themselves as strict followers and saviours of Islam but when I asked them if they can really stop watching TV and movies or so many modern day activities that Islam prohibits then they said if they follow all in Islam then life will be so miserable, that very moment I felt that Muslim world talks Islamic on surface but deep beneath its just handful of people who are truly Islamic. Its same with what we call "jihad" which again was and is wrongly interpreted and its effect can be seen in a very big way in the form of "Islamic terrorism" which is engulfing world cities everyday.

Recent developments in Pakistan as home to terrorists and Taliban's and Afghanistan's Taliban are the words enough to shiver any strong heart as Pakistan's nuclear weapons are almost in the hands of terrorists and its impact on the world can be easily imagined even by a fool.
So many of them and all are presenting themselves as saviour of Islam and Islamic people and its no surprise when we see people like Kasab of Mumbai - Taj terror attack or people who die of hunger and poverty falling for few penny and falsely glorified sacrifice by being human bombs which in turn will take them closer to Allah. Under deep pressure of illiteracy, poverty and deeply embedded Islamic faith lead them to killings of thousands of innocent people which includes their own people.

Muslims all over the world are facing severe crisis about their identity , dress code and styling. A best example that flashed on news was that how a Muslim family not allowed to board a flight in US due to security reasons and suspicion of their being Muslim at first place. Even in India leaders and people of this community had to come out to clarify their stand and views on religious harmony. Their effort of trying to show themselves as victim of Islamic terrorism meant that people of other religions should not label an ordinary, innocent Muslim as terrorist. In their hearts religion must have been so heavy to carry because instead of bringing peace and love it brought them hatred, suspicion and piercing eyes of other communities.

Muslims when attack mosques in a Muslim country and kill their own kind then why don't people in Muslim world realise that whom they follow in the name of Islam is actually killing Muslims too. Pakistan almost under fire of terror groups with already burning SWAT and Peshawar is every day's "BREAKING NEWS" in International media. I must say when u breed fire dragons then be ready for the day when they fire back on you.

A blind person on listening all this can understand but its tragic when people with eyes who see all this but don't try to understand that Terrorism will not affect only to their neighbours but in real burn their own houses and kill their own children in their own misinterpreted Islamic world .
Islam was founded to spread love and mercy and teach a way of life where humanity means everything. Muslim world and especially educated Muslims please try to bring change in your own ways because fire of terrorism will spread in your houses too and few flames you can already see rising.

I wrote this sensitive matter without being biased because I am at first place a human being and religion of humanity stands first.. remember that religions were never bad ...they just got infected by few bad people... even Hinduism or Christianity suffers such problems but on local levels or within a country...but for now the whole world is concerned about terrorism and its links in Pakistan and its impact on world. Every religion is equal for me because they have human beings in it.